Post by starcrossed on Mar 27, 2008 22:25:55 GMT -5
Hello 
I decided that since I tend to write....long....long poems...LOL Why not make one into a short story. This is 'My Breaking Heart'. A story about the last moments that happen when a break up occurs. I hope you like it.
SDJ
(aka 'Star')
Breaking My Heart
Time passes... slowly.
The street lights,
Have begun to turn on for the evening.
Dinner was brief.
Hardly any conversation was spoken.
The movie amusing.
No laughter could be heard from either of us.
The night was still early...
He asked if he could take me home.
I asked if he was ill.
He says "No".
With that,
I let it go.
I die... slowly.
Awkwardness,
Shared our company.
Strange for us.
Strange for a love of so many years.
Driving home.
I feel tension growing.
Forced smile.
Trying to find comfort,
I reach out to place a hand on his leg.
He moves away as if my touch burnt.
I try to hide my fear.
He is lost in thought.
Our car is parked at the curb of the street.
Silently we sit there.
An eternity.
Little warning given,
He exits the car.
My stomach turns.
He opens my door.
I step out,
With only a slight hesitation.
Walking like zombies.
Together.
Corpses with no emotion showing.
We are at the front of my house.
The leaves rustle in the wind.
Soft and steady.
We are alone.
Time passes... slowly.
I walk away from the car.
Standing under the street light,
I look at the bugs flying carefree around the light.
I hear him sigh.
With a single look... I know.
No words.
I feel all breath removed from my soul.
He begins.
A story that I can't hear.
I can't bear to hear.
Too many words falling upon my ears,
And none make any sense to me.
I am dying... slowly.
I am trapped in a nightmare that simply can not be.
I open my mouth to speak,
But nothing comes out.
He loves me?
I hear those words so clearly.
They are meaningless.
He says that you where not faithful.
Tells me that it did not mean anything.
Tells me that it will never happen again.
Tells me that I am the one you want.
Confusion is his only defense.
A weak moment.
Just a chance encounter,
And it passed.
My heart is breaking.
I need to escape.
My body begins to shake,
As if from cold.
The night air is all too warm.
I hate him...
But, can not bring myself to feel anything at all.
I hate him...
But, I can not feel at all.
I turn away.
I have no place to go,
Even when my home is so close.
My feet will not move.
Time passes... slowly.
His footsteps are close to me.
I manage a whisper.
I plead for him to go.
I feel his touch my shoulder,
As I pull away.
My heart...
What fragments are left of my heart...
No longer belong to him.
I don't even know if I belong to myself.
So lost.
Beyond lost.
Falling.
Hating.
I can't breathe.
I want to run away.
Go farther,
Than the Earth has land to stay beneath my feet.
I die... slowly.
All the strength in my legs,
Has long since abandoned me.
I am forced to kneel on the dirty pavement.
Holding myself.
Little comfort.
I feel lost in this moment.
It doesn't seem to be real.
Silently,
Tears fall from my eyes.
In a uncontrolled flow,
Falling like warm rain.
They make not a single sound,
As they land on the ground.
My voice is caught in my throat.
I have not one word to say.
His voice haunts me.
Begs for a second chance.
My heart is broken.
I am not here.
In this moment,
I am a stranger even to myself.
Emotions.
All too many emotions.
All at once.
I question... is what death feels like?
Hurt.
Pain.
Sadness,
Beyond anything I could compare.
I am hollow to the world.
A shadow,
That refuses to show it's presence in the light.
Darkness.
Alone.
I am living in a silent death.
Lifting my head,
I turn to him.
No words pass my lips...
Just the steady flow of tears.
My lips quiver.
I am in death,
Of a life that was false.
I am in mourning.
Over the lose of a friendship,
That I thought that I had in him.
I am in fear.
What will life will like,
When he is no longer here.
A love that wasn't.
A life that was never real.
He insists that I speak.
I am at loss.
Blood flowing freely.
I don't know what he wants from me.
What he expects,
Is not reality.
Reality?
I don't even think I exist.
My heart is broken.
Words.
So many things to say.
My lips part.
Finding courage in myself,
I stand.
I take a unsteady breathe...
"You broke my heart... and that is the one thing that you promised me you would never do."
He begins..
And I wave a shaky hand to halt him.
"Please... just go away."
And all is done.
I turn and walk away.
Never looking back.
Locking myself in my dark home,
I collapse on the floor crying.
Time passes... slowly.
I die... slowly.
There is no him.
There is no me.
My heart is so alone.
My heart is broken.
This is breaking my heart.
I decided that since I tend to write....long....long poems...LOL Why not make one into a short story. This is 'My Breaking Heart'. A story about the last moments that happen when a break up occurs. I hope you like it.SDJ
(aka 'Star')
Breaking My Heart
Time passes... slowly.
The street lights,
Have begun to turn on for the evening.
Dinner was brief.
Hardly any conversation was spoken.
The movie amusing.
No laughter could be heard from either of us.
The night was still early...
He asked if he could take me home.
I asked if he was ill.
He says "No".
With that,
I let it go.
I die... slowly.
Awkwardness,
Shared our company.
Strange for us.
Strange for a love of so many years.
Driving home.
I feel tension growing.
Forced smile.
Trying to find comfort,
I reach out to place a hand on his leg.
He moves away as if my touch burnt.
I try to hide my fear.
He is lost in thought.
Our car is parked at the curb of the street.
Silently we sit there.
An eternity.
Little warning given,
He exits the car.
My stomach turns.
He opens my door.
I step out,
With only a slight hesitation.
Walking like zombies.
Together.
Corpses with no emotion showing.
We are at the front of my house.
The leaves rustle in the wind.
Soft and steady.
We are alone.
Time passes... slowly.
I walk away from the car.
Standing under the street light,
I look at the bugs flying carefree around the light.
I hear him sigh.
With a single look... I know.
No words.
I feel all breath removed from my soul.
He begins.
A story that I can't hear.
I can't bear to hear.
Too many words falling upon my ears,
And none make any sense to me.
I am dying... slowly.
I am trapped in a nightmare that simply can not be.
I open my mouth to speak,
But nothing comes out.
He loves me?
I hear those words so clearly.
They are meaningless.
He says that you where not faithful.
Tells me that it did not mean anything.
Tells me that it will never happen again.
Tells me that I am the one you want.
Confusion is his only defense.
A weak moment.
Just a chance encounter,
And it passed.
My heart is breaking.
I need to escape.
My body begins to shake,
As if from cold.
The night air is all too warm.
I hate him...
But, can not bring myself to feel anything at all.
I hate him...
But, I can not feel at all.
I turn away.
I have no place to go,
Even when my home is so close.
My feet will not move.
Time passes... slowly.
His footsteps are close to me.
I manage a whisper.
I plead for him to go.
I feel his touch my shoulder,
As I pull away.
My heart...
What fragments are left of my heart...
No longer belong to him.
I don't even know if I belong to myself.
So lost.
Beyond lost.
Falling.
Hating.
I can't breathe.
I want to run away.
Go farther,
Than the Earth has land to stay beneath my feet.
I die... slowly.
All the strength in my legs,
Has long since abandoned me.
I am forced to kneel on the dirty pavement.
Holding myself.
Little comfort.
I feel lost in this moment.
It doesn't seem to be real.
Silently,
Tears fall from my eyes.
In a uncontrolled flow,
Falling like warm rain.
They make not a single sound,
As they land on the ground.
My voice is caught in my throat.
I have not one word to say.
His voice haunts me.
Begs for a second chance.
My heart is broken.
I am not here.
In this moment,
I am a stranger even to myself.
Emotions.
All too many emotions.
All at once.
I question... is what death feels like?
Hurt.
Pain.
Sadness,
Beyond anything I could compare.
I am hollow to the world.
A shadow,
That refuses to show it's presence in the light.
Darkness.
Alone.
I am living in a silent death.
Lifting my head,
I turn to him.
No words pass my lips...
Just the steady flow of tears.
My lips quiver.
I am in death,
Of a life that was false.
I am in mourning.
Over the lose of a friendship,
That I thought that I had in him.
I am in fear.
What will life will like,
When he is no longer here.
A love that wasn't.
A life that was never real.
He insists that I speak.
I am at loss.
Blood flowing freely.
I don't know what he wants from me.
What he expects,
Is not reality.
Reality?
I don't even think I exist.
My heart is broken.
Words.
So many things to say.
My lips part.
Finding courage in myself,
I stand.
I take a unsteady breathe...
"You broke my heart... and that is the one thing that you promised me you would never do."
He begins..
And I wave a shaky hand to halt him.
"Please... just go away."
And all is done.
I turn and walk away.
Never looking back.
Locking myself in my dark home,
I collapse on the floor crying.
Time passes... slowly.
I die... slowly.
There is no him.
There is no me.
My heart is so alone.
My heart is broken.
This is breaking my heart.
