dawn
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Post by dawn on Jun 18, 2009 14:33:13 GMT -5
Star - once again your beautiful words have said more than I possibly ever could. You summed up how I feel about this place - some people in work & stuff think I'm weird because I talk about my friends in the computer  but to me you're as important as those I surround myself with - sometimes more as I can be totally honest and I know whatever is going on with me - someone here has faced the same thing and lived to tell the tale. What I say to you is not just letters typed on a keyboard, I'm here & willing to listen or be the punch bag or just virtually sit with you all during any tough times - or smile, cheer and punch the air with you all on the good ones. Mwah x  |
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Post by jillywilly65 on Jun 18, 2009 16:52:11 GMT -5
Amen to that Dawn ! Steph you hit it right on the head for me. We are family here and I don't even know how it happened? But the love and support and care here can't be beat...
I think because we all have had so many painful experiences we help each other carry the pain? Just a thought.
Anyway I pray for your family often Steph, knowing full well how hard it is right now, for all of you.
Thanks for your love and encouragment and support.. I love my MC.Com family!
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 18, 2009 17:05:49 GMT -5
I know for a fact that you are not "weird"... or at least you are not alone in being weird...lol
Awe Dawn {{{Hugs}}} we are all really family. No different from talking to those we love on the phone, when they live to far away from us. It doesn't make anyone less valuable for the distance, rather it makes their value that much greater. For we understand how important they are, hold out our hands to allow them to know we are here, and never take for granted that are indeed loved and kept within our hearts.
True, we may have many that pass through our lives that are present (in body) each new day. We see them often and speak to them in certain terms, however, how often do we ever consider if those around us even 'see us' or 'hear our words'? Not often, if at all. Though we are surrounded by 'real' people living in the 'real world' far from computer names and avatar's, doesn't mean anything is real in that world. Too many times we are forced to pretend to be anybody, other than who we are.
Here on these boards or on all the boards connected to our LH family, we can drop our false pretense and be ourselves. It is not because no one knows us... or that we will never meet each other. In fact most of us have met... and love each other more for all those bonds we have formed. No... we are able to be real and be free, since we trust and respect the opinions and idea's of all our family. Sometimes, we may have varying degree of opinions, yet we never allow our differences to rip us apart.
We each must take our unique journey through life, but if any of us shall stray it's a blessing beyond words to know that someone will be there to pick up our tattered body once again.
I thank you for your offer Dawn... I will gladly come to you when my heart is in need of added comfort. In friendship, I want you to know that I will offer no less in return to you.
{{{Hugs}}}
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 18, 2009 17:48:38 GMT -5
Amen to that Dawn ! Steph you hit it right on the head for me. We are family here and I don't even know how it happened? But the love and support and care here can't be beat... I think because we all have had so many painful experiences we help each other carry the pain? Just a thought. Anyway I pray for your family often Steph, knowing full well how hard it is right now, for all of you. Thanks for your love and encouragment and support.. I love my MC.Com family! I didn't draw blood when I hit it did I? Blood makes me feel dizzy and sick...  lol I think it is a lot of different little reasons that we are all here together. It may have all started long ago as something or 'someone'... but, it is far more to us all now. For whatever reason or blessings, we are now a honest to goodness family unit... and that is all that matters from this point on. Family is a gift... and it is a honor to consider each one of you that. Love you all...  Steph |
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Post by BBE on Jun 18, 2009 19:24:09 GMT -5
Star, that was beautiful. Tine, I'm so sorry about Jenna's mom.   |
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Post by cgs2007 on Jun 18, 2009 21:32:29 GMT -5
thank you everyone for your kind words and thoughts....
it was 3 months and 5 days exactly after they told her she had 3-6 months to live when she died.... i shed my tears and now its time to be strong for jenna. she needs me to keep it together right now. its gonna be hard to look at her and know how much shes hurting and to not be able to do anything about it but sit with her and hold her and let her cry....
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 19, 2009 0:33:26 GMT -5
Thank you Nancy... {{{Hugs}}}
Christine... sometimes in life we can't make the pain of other's just go away... it's takes time and understanding (from herself and from others). Losing someone is one of the hardest things that anyone can face... especially when it is someone we love. It doesn't matter if it was expected or not. You are being there for her in a very emotional time and offering your support to her. That is much more strength and/or comfort than any words could offer. Allow her to grieve... and allow yourself to accept the knowledge that it's alright for you to cry along with her for her loss. There is nothing wrong with that, nor are you expected to be stronger than any other person in this world whom is left to face this sadness with someone she holds dear.{{{Hugs}}}
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dawn
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Post by dawn on Jun 19, 2009 2:29:33 GMT -5
Tine - as usual - star says things better than I can - Its odd how tongue tied I get even on the computer  Just be there for Jenna - that's all you can do. Star - the offer is there, its not a "fixed term deal" - if I can help or just listen, I'm here - the time zone is a bit of a pain sometimes but I don't think there's much time when any of you wonderful people are far away from my thoughts. Love to you all!  |
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 19, 2009 15:55:41 GMT -5
Star - the offer is there, its not a "fixed term deal" - if I can help or just listen, I'm here - the time zone is a bit of a pain sometimes but I don't think there's much time when any of you wonderful people are far away from my thoughts. Love to you all! [img src=" ![]() martycasey.org/emoticons/wub.gif"] [/IMG] [/quote] and to you too... |
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 21, 2009 12:40:26 GMT -5
Happy Father's Day too all the dad's in this world that take time for their children and love them unconditionally. It doesn't take much to make a child... but it takes a million blessings to raise them.
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 22, 2009 14:44:23 GMT -5
Dad Update time...
My Dad is doing well. He just wants to come home... so, far all the new tests are showing that they cancer is out. The doctor's are hopeful that with his entire stomach removed, that he has a greater chance at finally going into remission. They still have a feeding tube at his side, and a tube down nose... but, if he continues to recover at the rate he is currently, the doctor will allow him to come home sometime next week. Lot's of prayers for my Dad and for everyone out there that needs prayers and love...
God Bless.
Steph
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Post by jillywilly65 on Jun 22, 2009 18:53:32 GMT -5
That's good news Steph. Thanks for the Daddy update. I hope you all can sigh a lil sigh of relief? I will keep on praying.  |
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 23, 2009 0:51:55 GMT -5
Thank you Jill {{{Hugs}}}... I think we all want to, but we are afraid. We kinda let our guard drop the last two surgeries... so, it is difficult to sigh at all not knowing 'what if '...( which sucks) I will admit. I think after the six months and the doctors tell us that he is in remission, we will be able to sigh in relief.
Until then, we are just blessed to hear that he is doing well, and feeling grateful beyond words for all the positive thoughts and prayers being sent to all of us in this really emotional and physically draining time. We can't thank you all enough for the show of support. My entire family appreciates all of you for that.
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dawn
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Post by dawn on Jun 23, 2009 3:04:37 GMT -5
Excellent news Star  I think I'd be the same - slightly more cautious after last time. I hope your dad is home & with you soon. |
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 23, 2009 14:32:26 GMT -5
[/IMG] I think I'd be the same - slightly more cautious after last time. I hope your dad is home & with you soon. [img src=" ![]() martycasey.org/emoticons/wub.gif"][/IMG] [img src=" ![]() martycasey.org/emoticons/heart.gif"][/IMG] [img src=" ![]() martycasey.org/emoticons/hugs.gif"][/IMG] [/quote] It's kinda hard not to be cautious... I think I am more so than everyone else. I can't help it... I am just really scared still. They took the tube out of my Dad's nose and throat this morning. They will try to feed him broth and jello. If he doesn't have any problems swallowing it, they they told my mom that they may consider releasing him tomorrow from the hospital. That is awesome news. I think being home is so much better for a person to be able to heal. |
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dawn
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Post by dawn on Jun 23, 2009 15:50:24 GMT -5
Fingers crossed that your dad can eat, and there is no better word than AWESOME if your dad comes home. I'll keep everything crossed for you |
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 23, 2009 16:08:14 GMT -5
Thank you Dawn... don't get too tangled and forget to uncross your legs when you walk. Tripping hurts... I know. For all the training that I have as a dancer, I still crash into walls when I walk or go into doorways face first. Born talent to learn and mimic everything I see very quickly... but, walking I can't do correctly after all these years...lol
My Mom thinks it is an endearing quality.... I think I am just clumsy. But, at least I can dance.... *blush
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dawn
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Post by dawn on Jun 24, 2009 2:21:27 GMT -5
I seem to be an expert at the "nearly fall" - I'm sure people in work think I've been drinking, but it's just something I do! I noticed my mum do it recently & dad just said she's always done it - so figure that's where its from! Unfortunately - I can't dance! but I can type quick!!!!!!!!!! That's my talent! Huge virtual hugs/positive thoughts and anything else anyone needs on this thread - lurkers and posters alike!  |
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Post by keysunset on Jun 24, 2009 7:12:28 GMT -5
Hope you dad is home soon to recuperate, star! I think when you get a chance to breath (ha, ha, right?) you should get a massage to help your body work out all the stress.
Keeping you all in thoughts and prayers, special Star.
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Post by starcrossed on Jun 24, 2009 15:48:23 GMT -5
I seem to be an expert at the "nearly fall" - I'm sure people in work think I've been drinking, but it's just something I do! I noticed my mum do it recently & dad just said she's always done it - so figure that's where its from! Unfortunately - I can't dance! but I can type quick!!!!!!!!!! That's my talent! LOL.... I swear that walls pop up in front of me or I have a magnet that draws me toward them. I can be walking straight and manage to still walk into any wall in the area. My clumsy side comes out a million times worse when I am nervous... especially, when I am in new unfamiliar situations with people that I don't feel comfortable with yet. I usually end up doing something that belongs in a comedy routine. Example's... 1) I once showered a couple sitting at a booth with ketchup, while having lunch with my new co workers. I picked something simple off the menu thinking that I couldn't get into much trouble with a hamburger and fries. I picked up the bottle of ketchup and never noticed it had a loose cap. It wasn't full, so I tapped the bottom of the bottle. It was like slow motion as I realized the cap had flown clear off, and in midair was a stream of ketchup flying across the room. Then it was over in an instant... the red tomato paste now found a rest stop on the lap of a older African American woman. I was shocked and so sorry... I quickly went to apologize and help clean my mess. A waitress was screaming for cleanup and club soda. My co workers were hiding almost under their table. But the woman whom I dosed was so sweet... she said that it was nothing that couldn't be fixed, that things like that happen all the time, and that it was all up to God... and she never blamed me and made me feel alright about the whole thing. She even insisted that I go back to eat (since I was so tiny) and that she would be alright. 2)While out to dinner with my boss ( I was 16 years old and worked for the LA City/County as one of the youngest Consultant's at the Native American Indian Commission), I managed to get a chair stuck to my purse, pulled it across this incredibly fancy restaurant and up a full two steps before I realized it was there. The chair was freakishly light  At least least I entertained the three piece band that was on stage. They stopped amid a piece they had started just to stare at me... My boss was amused as were my co workers who could not stop laughing. The restaurant host offered to help me, and apologized for having overly 'frisky chairs'. 3) I went out on a date with this really cute guy friend of mine in college. I had a minor crush on him, and was thrilled when he suggested that we go out together for dinner and then a friends party. I had never dressed up around him, and thought this will be the perfect time to play up my girlie side. So, out came the cute little black dress that fit in all the right places and the oh so hot high heels that hurt my feet, but made my legs look great. Anyway, all is great he comes to pick me up in his new mustang. Being a gentleman he goes to open the door for me, but since their wasn't any parking in the driveway he had to park at the curb. The grass at the curb is thick... my heel sharp... yup... as he goes to open the door for me, my heel sinks into the grass, I trip and land backward on my butt, since my feet wouldn't move forward. All I hear is "Steph? Where did you go?"... as he was holding the door still open for me...LOL Yeah... he found me and helped me up laughing up a storm at the same time. I wasn't damaged (except my pride) and we went out all the same. But, romance never happened. He in the end was too hung up on his ex girlfriend, and when he realized two years later that I was the one person that could have cared more for him than anyone else, it was too late... I had moved on. I think the only time I have been nervous and not had issues, is when I was performing... crowds never bothered me when I was on stage and I was trained to do what I had to do. *Uh... sorry... typo ... I had to fix it...  lol |
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