For my mom.

[chanvre]

I wrote this poem for my mom's birthday a few years ago and it's still sitting on her beside table. I revised it a bit after she passed away and put it on display at her funeral.

I've been in hiding ever since she died back in April because I didn't want to be a part of anything that had ever given me happiness. If that makes sense...

And strangely, listening to the LH made me feel even sadder for some reason. After thinking about it , I realized that maybe it was because of the great memories that came along with the music. I don't think I could imagine feeling anything like that again. Or even wanting to.

Lately, though, I've been opening my heart to music and books and art and things I used to love. I've spent the entire weekend listening to "Hold On" repeatedly and it's been extremely therapeutic! And it's a relief to know that even though a tiny part of me died, I still have a lot of life to give.



"Angel"

Her guidance gave me strength
Her soul was radiant with light
Her selflessness gave hope to others
And I can only wish to one day become
A reflection of her.

I never stood alone
As her soothing words
Were my comfort.
She lent me her heart
Her wisdom.
Her shoulder.

I will never forget
The way I felt when
She held me each time
So tender and sweet
A hug bursting with overwhelming love.

A simple thank you could never be enough
For her unconditional support
For the lessons she taught me.
How will I live in a world that she
Is no longer a part of?

A beautiful blessing it was to have her
As she made me who I am today
And I know I will never be loved like that again
Because she was the only angel I had ever known
She was my mother…my safe haven…my home

[bostongirl]

Chanvre,
My Mom passed away when I was a teenager. I thought that a large part of me went with her also. But time does have a way of giving perspective. And what I now know is that a prt of me did not die with her, it is simply in another place. And my Mom lives on inside of me. Each time I comfort someone, it is her comfort that comes across. When I speak, I often hear her words.

Losing a parent is a tragic love story. Your words are beautiful and a tribute to a wonderful, loving mother. Thank you for being brave and sharing them with your friends here.

Liz

[raeski]

Well said Liz ~

Beautiful poem ~ beautiful picture

hugs going out your way ~ everyone grieves differently.
you'll find what Liz says makes sense one day!!

Thank you for sharing!!

[keysunset]

chanvre,

Yes, not wanting to be a part of anything that gave you happiness, makes sense. But I am so glad you are able to open yourself back up again.

The song, "Hold On," was also a rope that myself and a group of others grieving over a loved one "held on" to.

Thank you for sharing your poem and the lovely photo.

Sending you much love and prayers and positive waves.

[Kari]

Simply Beautiful! Thank you for sharing!

[dustyblue25]

So sorry to hear about your Mom. Your poem is very beautiful. Thanks for sharing such a pretty picture of you and your Mom.

Take care Chanvre.

[jillywilly65]

Thank you for sharing this Chanvre
I lost my mom when I was 18. Now at 42 I still miss her. I always will.
The poem is so beautiful, so very nice.

Jill

[starcrossed]

That was beautiful Chanvre. I can understand...just know that a part of her will always live inside your soul and she will always be watching over you. Take care.

Steph

[chanvre]

Thanks for all the kind words, girls. I was a little intimidated to pour all of that out of me.

I'm sorry about your losses (Liz, Jill and Keysunset) It's comforting to know all of you got through them, no matter how hard.

xo

[grumpypirate]

Chanvre, that is very beautiful. I've lost many people close to me in my short 16 years, and I know what sadness feels like, but no matter what, they will always be in your heart. I think these song lyrics represent that. They're from the movie Tarzan.
Remember, all of us are here if you need to talk.

You'll Be In My Heart

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here
in my heart always
Always

[grumpypirate]

Oh, and your mother is very beautiful. I love that picture.

[blueeyz]

Chanvre,

Thank you for sharing such a beautiful, touching poem. The picture of you and your mother is precious. I hope that as time passes, the pain of your loss gets easier to deal with. Her spirit lives on inside of you.

[chanvre]

Wow. That was awesome, GP. Thank you for that. Those lyrics do ring (very) true.

And thanks for those thoughts, blueeyz.

All of you are wonderful. Much love.

[dawn]

Hi Chanvre - I rarely visit the creativity thread - but wanted to drop by just to say how amazing that poem is. I wish I could express myself like that, but I was made with the creative spirit of a potato.

As others have said - with time you may feel different. The people I have lost are still with me as long as I never forget them.

Huge hugs to you and GP - great poem too!

[BBE]

Chanvre,
A beautiful mom and a beautiful daughter in that photo.
The bond your souls have can never be broken.
That was a very moving tribute you wrote to her.

[valerie]

Beautiful poem NancyBBE . I only wish my mom and dad were still here with me .

[chanvre]

Thanks, ladies. I know we've all suffered tremendous losses in our lives...I have faith that time does heal the wounds. In fact, I'm counting on it.

Much love to all.

[valerie]

I'm so sorry I called you by NancyBBE. I didn't mean to . I caught site of her avatar and she stuck in my head .