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[jet]

I did watch the ad Dawn....very pink indeed...they wouldn't dare play that over here!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

I'd move anywhere anytime, give up any job for the thought of being somewhere different. I have moved about 32 times in my life...I lived in the same place till I was 16 and I've lived in my current house for eight years...if my math is correct, I've moved an average of twice a year for 16 years!

WHOA...no wonder I'm standing still at the moment!

[dawn]

Wow! I've never lived outside of Bristol, and been in my house for the last 10 years. Moved out of mums, rented for about 9 months, came back home, moved into my house. Never moving again! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

We have jobs! But the weather is pants! ;D ;D ;D

[starcrossed]

Just stopping to see how everyone is doing. Have a great week ladies

[Sunflower Gypsy]

:)HEY Everyone!

Just checking in with you guys and seeing how things have been around here. I'm doing GREAT! I also wanted to invite you all to come check out my space page. I'm keeping my page a HOPPING with new entrance songs several times a day...new Background every 2 days and same for music video spotlight. I'm blogging as well...poetry and News of all sorts...from me or Movie News on Johnny Depp. If you have a way to view my space page here is the link.

www.myspace.com/sunflowersunset

Keep your eyes peeled...as my page changes all the times...tryin' to keep it fresh...unique and ROCKIN'! TTYL Everyone!

Peace and Harmony To You ALL!!

SG

[Sunflower Gypsy]

One more thing..if you click the link and get the private page info..all you have to do is create a temp account with my space(you never have to use your page...if ya don't need it) and then click "Add Friend" below my picture on the page that has "private profile must be Added as a friend to view profile" That will send me a request and I'll add ya..hope it works for all who would like to view my page. Take Care...

SG

[starcrossed]

Hiya SG...It is quiet here....don't know where everyone went...LOL

[dawn]

Hiya SG & Star. Hope you're both well. It is quiet in here isn't it? Maybe all the Aussies are sleeping

[aussiefan]

Hi everyone,

Has been quite awhile since I have been online to catch up, been pretty quiet around here lately hey!

My computer hard drive died and am only just back up and running after a week down, also have been back in hospital again for another blackout (11th one), only unconscious 4 hours this time and awoke with no left sided weakness but like all the others just came from nowhere. Still scary and still have no concrete answers why they happen, with my neurologist we are narrowing it down to what it isn't but still haven't discovered what it is yet!! I am getting quite anxious to find an answer.

I have been back to my ortho surgeon regarding the next round of surgery to the leg nerve damage but after the MRI, scans and Xrays they have decided that no further surgery will help the problem as it has been discovered the nerve damage is much more extensive than first thought. It now goes down my leg to several inches below my knee not end above my knee as first thought. This has caused the sartorious muscle (main muscle of the thigh & leg) to be so badly atrophic that it has virtually died due to no nerves feeding it. The last and only option I have now to try to rebuild my leg to get off the crutches is have fortnightly spinal nerve blocks so my leg is completely numb and go onto intense physio to try to get the muscle back to some sort of strength. Unfortunately the damage is so bad it is very unlikely the muscle will ever return to full strength but I will be giving it my best shot to try get off these bloody crutches. The pain in my leg now is unbearable and I am on higher dose of morphine plus other painkillers and it still isn't helping. I am so depressed about the whole situation, every corner I turn there is another one of those dark, long tunnels that I just can't seem to emerge from. The specialist says it will be 3 months of hard work before I see any improvement but more likely 6 months before a big improvement will be made.

This means I am going to miss my third horse show season in a row due to this new finding. Can't go back to work or drive the car and walking more than 15 minutes at a time is impossible due to the pain. The reason my knee has no flexion and I can't take any weight is because the muscle has shrivelled to nothing and as soon as I put weight on it it gives out as the muscle no longer works.

Mick has been so supportive but even he is starting to now think I am never going to get back to my old self. I have gone back to my shrink as I really need to keep talking things thru as my dark thoughts have crept back and I am a very depressed person at present. Even LH music can't put a smile on my face. just as the smiley, I feel I am banging my head against a brick wall. I just don't understand why God feels the need to put me thru all this, I try to be a good person but not one damn thing lately is going right.

OK, sorry for the huge whinge, but I needed to chat to someone and who else but my best mates at MC.org. I honestly feel like giving up and just throwing my life into the 'too hard basket'.

All my friends are now out each weekend competing with their horses as our shows began early August and another year I have to watch others win what Marty, Trees and Epic should be out there winning. Each weekend I get more upset because I am stuck at home, while my mates are out their winning, it really sucks bigtime

Anyway, topic change, The SAINTS had a win again this weekend and there is now a chance they will make the finals with just 2 games of the season to go. At least Mick is happy with the footy.

My sister has 2 weeks to go before her baby is due, she is in the UK, she is keeping really well now but can't wait for baby to pop out. Cat (my mare) has about 30 days to go and looks fabulous but she is showing no signs of going early this year, still no milk bag happening and she normally has a huge 'milkbar' for the foal, she may go late this year. The foal is very active and yu can see her belly getting bumps all the time. Her foal is the only good thing I have to look forward to this year. Will keep you posted on her progress.

SG, your Myspace page is fabulous, you work so hard at it, I think I am gonna take mine down for awhile as it is so out of date and with these blackouts my short term memory is only getting worse. Being on the computer I can only do in short bursts as the headaches get too severe.

Den, are you over your Maddie time? Sounds like you did some great stuff. Mick and I went for a drive thru the Dandenongs last weekend and I instantly thought of you, it is so beautiful now we have had rain and everything is green.

All ponies are great, thank God I have Julie coming each morning to help me with them or they would all be just chucked out in the paddocks fending for themselves. I will give them all hugs from you guys tomorrow.

Ok, thats enough from me, I hope eeryone else is well and having a great weekend.

I see many Aussie bands are heading to the USA at present, I so hope they can break the market over there. Good Luck to Eskimo Joe, John Butler Trio, Silverchair, Evermore, plus a couple of others I can't remember. GO .
AUSSIES!!!

OK, I'm off to bed with a couple of Ouzo's to try numb the pain, I really need a good nights sleep whre I don't cry myself to sleep like usual, so tonight we will see how the alcohol goes.

Love you all, take care, Helen.

[starcrossed]

Helen,

I am sorry to hear that you are going through all of this. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Just don't give up on life. You are still here on this Earth and things will get better...they have too. I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless.

Stephanie

[dlh]

Helen, dear mate, it sure has been a rough year for you. *chink* *chink* Here's to better times ahead. Although right now you don't know how you are going to get through it, I KNOW you will and I can't wait to get my arms around both you and Mick next year and join you in another trip to the Dandenong ranges and drive along the gorgeous beaches you have there.



The Dandenong ranges are so beautiful....



This time I'd like to see the wombats that were supposed to be crossing this road. I know Mick must have thought I was a complete drongo having him stop the car so that I could take a picture of a road sign. He is such a good sport and I really miss that look he used to give me ....like "surely she is kidding"? ;D Can't wait to share a beer with you two again.



.......and some cakes...yum! I can't believe my first picture I took in Australia was of all the bakery shops along a street in St. Kilda.






BTW....Go Saints!!!!!



You've got some wonderful exports coming our way.


SG, you've been one busy gal with your myspace. Helen, I haven't changed my myspace page in quite awhile as well. Still getting peeps visiting my profile so I guess I'm still spreading the word..... the Lovehammers.


It sure has been quiet here. I've been crazy busy with work and with the Grandkids. I missed all of the summer concerts. I was glad to hear that Mia (our fellow Aussie/Asia street teamer) finally got to see the Lovehammers play at Market Days. She said that they were "amazing" and enjoyed meeting the boys and the other fans. Looks like it is unanimous. They are "amazing"

I thought I saw jet and dawn at the bar with a big stack of Lottery scratch-off tickets. They looked very determined. I'm not sure, but I could swear that they were doing shots everytime they had a losing ticket. ......um....hope they win soon.


Gotta go. Hope everyone has a fantastic week.


Den

[IWOmusic]

Czesc (hi in Polish)!!!
Helen, reading your story only makes me think how much I would love to
hug you! ...and i am pretty good at it, ask Marty
I'm sending positive energy from an ocean away...should reach you
shortly

[dawn]

Hi Helen, Den & Iwo

Helen - it breaks my heart to hear you going through all this - I know how that depression stuff can get a good grip on you & make you think life is all just but you have to remember it's not - think of your loved ones and the horses, focus on the good things that have happened and will happen in future. Hopefully you'll find that light at the end of the tunnel.

I really wish I could just get there & give you a huge hug but these scratchcards just aren't working Den - didn't realise you noticed us there! ;D

[henry]

Holly crap Helen!!! You poor thing. I can't imagine what you're going through and can't blame you for being so down. OMG! I know it must be so hard, but try to focus on the positive things you have in your life....and remember we're sending lots of group hugs your way. If my PB was up, I post Marty sending a "grope" hug to you!!!!

[chk]

Hi mates,
I haven't been around in a long while but thinking of you all during my travels. I have not had a chance to read much on the boards, but wanted to jump in with a big hug for Helen.
Mate, you do have things to look forward to this year --not just the foal, but a new niece or nephew is on the way, your friends are all here and rallying for an Oz tour --and, best of all, you can make progress with your leg --even if it is interminably slow and painful. Any progress is good progress.
Of course you might not ever be the same person you were -- but no one can go thru what you've dealt with and be untouched. It doesn't mean you cannot be happy or even a better person. Keep your eyes on the prize, mate.
Last, I'll leave you with a big GO SAINTS. If the Cubs can be in first place, then the Saints can win.
kisses,
C

[jet]

Huge hugs and lots of love Helen Hang in there mate.

Its Dawn's birthday today...maybe I can offer a little distraction for you

Cooooeeee Dawn

HAPPY BIRTHDAY











Oops! How did that get in there... ;D ;D ;D ;D







Have a great day girlfriend

[dawn]

Hey Jet - my internet connection went screwey!

awwe the gift of Marty & a monkey! Who could ask for more!!!! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

[aussiefan]

Hey Dawn,

Just dropping by to wish you an AWESOME birthday.
Have a great day from all your Aussie mates.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I'll have an Ouzo with ya or 2 Helen

[IWOmusic]

A belated birthday Dawn!!!
Hope you had fun and ate lots of chocolate!!!
Here is a perfect gift , yummy and functional, hope you'll like it

[dawn]

Awe - thanks Helen & Iwo! I'm still amazed that I speak to people on the other side of the world and more surprising - they speak to me! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

Thanks girls - hopefully I'll catch you on line soon!

[jet]

Coooeeee Dawn,

I'm suprised they speak to you too ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

sorry... ;D ;D ;D ;D couldn't help myself

I'm around for a bit if ya wanna catch up