Got Poetry?

[iwo]

OC, I've just noticed your poem here...love it!

[starcrossed]

iwo said:

Star, you touched me...
I hope that he will read it...I hope that he cares...I know that he is out there, ...maybe that's why we care so much...
Only empty minds are truly happy all the time, while we must pretend everything is alright...but struggle inside.

Thank you so much Iwo! I appreciate your kind and generous words. I will keep hoping....

[bostongirl]

I started writing about 6 months ago. Not because I am an apsiring writer, but because i was going thru an extreme meltdown and it just started coming out. Turned out to be a wonderful cathartic therapy. Until recently, I did not even tell anyone what I was doing because I thought folks would think I was going insane. (You'd have to know me to understand that - Ms. always in control) I still feel that it is deeply personal and find it difficult to share.

BUT........OC, I really want to share this with you. I read your poem and was deeply moved. This one is for you, you are not alone. Hope you like it.

UGLY

Hide in the closet, hide in the wall
I am so ugly I can’t go out at all
Today am I too young or am I too old?
No matter what I don’t fit the mold

Am I too dumb or am I too smart?
How come I can never get the part?
Don’t look at me, I know you will laugh
Cuz either I’m too thin or I’m too fat

You’re not staring at me cuz you like what you see
I know I’m a freak and you’re laughing at me
I want a perfect body, so I can be it
Tired of crying because I’m the misfit

People say beauty is on the inside
Sometimes I just wish that I would die
Cuz no one’s looking there to find me
Guess I’ll just have to wait and see

I want to be pretty, I want to be fine
I want you to see me and make you mine
I want to turn your head in a crowd
Can you see past the outside, can you see me at all
Cause the inside ain’t really ugly at all

[starcrossed]

Thank you for posting bostongirl. Never think you are alone in this world.

The truth is that I don't know you at all, but I have been through more than my share of heart ache and pain for my years. I know how out of control things can get, and know one seems to realize the pain you are in.

I am glad that you have found your voice through writing and poetry. Your words are trully touching.

PM me if you want to talk.

Star

[bostongirl]

Star,

Thanks for the kind words. I am truly inspired by all the people here at mc.org. So many strong intelligent people. I think that by helping others, we help ourselves in turn.

I just want OC to know that she is in good company regarding her poem.

Boston

[oceancat46]

Thank you so much for the post and the pm boston -- I really like your poem too.

We are Not Alone - but we are Unique --

something about the universality of these emotions allows us to understand each other and connect - even over the internet

I look at my life as it is today - at 47 years old - and all the range of experiences and emotions - the ups and downs - the quirks (even the ever changing brain chemistry!!) - and do my best to accept and love myself as I am

some days it is harder than others

I have written song lyrics (since eighth grade) - poems - short stories - journals -- for a long time and find it very cathartic - sometimes it is the only way I let myself really feel strong emotions (instead of numbing them with food or other means of avoidance)

Nice to know this is a safe place to share!!

[starcrossed]

Here is my new poem. Hope you like.

Fame

If I truly am so transparent,
why not respect what I ask?

Strange how the times have changed,
within a blink of an eye.

First you told me I was nothing,
now I am a God within your eyes!

I am still the same,
just that all you see is my new found fame.

On the road every single night...

Most relationships I can not hold on to,
or keep them unchanged,
no matter how hard I try.

I once loved the sounds and cheers of an over packed bar...

Now in larger venues,
my vision becomes often to blurred.

To be mobbed,
is not to be respected.

Treated like unbreakable glass.

Love making the music...

Confusion all around me,
I need to keep on track.

I am rapidly running on empty,
until I have nothing left.

Demands being made,
I can not keep some.

I think I am headed for a breakdown,
my soul has confessed.

Love my family...

Emotions run deep...

I just can not find the time to call them,
this makes my heart bleed.

When fame turns to fortune,
you have only one chance,
but to keep your true identity,
you have to believe in Gods plan.

[bostongirl]

OC - would love to read more of your poems/writings. It is inspiring.

[jet]

Star - all I can say is awesome. I love reading you.

Here is one I wrote sometime ago...

Hold on to me love
Can’t you see I’m falling?
Falling back to darkness
Falling from your grasp

Hold on to me love
Can’t you hear me screaming?
Drowning in the darkness
Drowning in the disbelieving

Hold on to me love
Can’t you help me find the light?
Shining through the bleakness
Shining from your eyes

Hold on to me love
Can’t you bring me back?
I’m tired and I’m broken
Save me from myself

[starcrossed]

I love it Jet! Thank you for posting. I would like to read more of your work.

[jet]

I have another one...it seems so so long ago now. I wrote to to describe how Marty made me feel...


Overload

You fill my head
As dusk runs to dark
All is quiet and still
Except inside my mind
Your voice rages
Drowning me in its depths
Eyes not closed
Your face comes to life
In my secret place
Your warmth surrounds me
I didn’t start the fire
I wanted to see your eyes
~~~~~
I tried to let you go
You’re grip is too strong
Holds me like a vice
I live my life
You’re always in my head
I can hear your smile
I breathe your light
Beautiful
Singing
I crave the fire
I crave your eyes
~~~~~
You don’t know me
I know you well
Through your words
Your smile
In my secret place
Your warmth envelops me
I can’t put out the fire
I’ve seen your eyes
~~~~~
Sunshine breaks day
You drift away
Your smile
Your voice
Lay low
‘Till dusk falls again
To light the flame
In my secret place
Of the fire
In your eyes

[starcrossed]

This is another beautiful work Jet! Great job!!!

[bostongirl]

Jet -
I love them both. Just beautiful. I think many can relate to Overload. Great title.
Boston

[oceancat46]

Here's a couple written in the past:

This one 10 years ago after my divorce:

A Divorce Poem

Separate ideas;
Separate checkbooks;
Separate careers;
Separate bathrooms;
Separate pets;
Separate health problems;
Separate bedrooms;
Separate interests;
Separate houses;
Separate goals;
Separate plans;
Separate dreams;
Broken hearts.

And this one - originally written in 8th grade, updated a little to reflect my change in spirituality -

Let’s Change the World

“Peace on the earth, good will towards men.”
I hear their mirth, but still ask “When?”
Will there ever be a time when there’s no pain or sorrow?
Having never been before, is there hope for tomorrow?
Talk, Talk
Always Talk
Nothing ever done.

Can there be hope for Earth today?
Can people cope? If not, we’ll pay.
Pollution, starvation, crime throughout the world and nation,
Some day there will be a time when there’s hope for salvation.
Talk, Talk
Lots of Talk
Something will be done.

Where can we find the hope and trust
To ease the mind? Search is a must.
Look inside for the answers, look deep inside somewhere
Listen to the words you hear in the people’s minds everywhere
Thought, Thought
Now there’s Thought
Things are Being Done.


Star - your poems - especially the last few that you've posted - remind me a lot of the struggles that I went through starting 10 years ago with my divorce -- I still have many challenges, but - for what it's worth - I am a lot more self-assured and confident than I used to be and I am finally starting to believe the affirmations that I have made for years.

I am taking my life back.
I will allow myself to prosper.
I am loving, I am lovable, I am worthy.
Every day is a new day that brings the promise of the future.

and one I added this last year:
May we ask the hard questions and may we receive gentle answers.

[bostongirl]

OC,
Love both your poems. A Divorce Poem is so direct, true, and somethig that many os us can relate to. THanks so much,
Boston

[starcrossed]

Hello everyone! It has been a little while since I wrote anything new. I decided it was time to post. I hope you like my new work.

It is about having strength in yourself, no matter what other's might say or think. I have been through this so many times in my life. I hope that you can relate... Bye!


Silenced

My words may be silenced,
but I will move on.

I close my eyes
to the harsh stares,
that society gives me.

My heart and determination
stand unbreakable.

Set back...

Restrictions...

I will not fall.

I have fallen one time to often,
and I refuse to go without a fight.

My voice shall be heard!

Life's journey is never simple or easy...

I have learned that lesson all to well.

I am of a different breed,
or cut from a different cloth.

I do not see things the way that they do...

Societies eyes....

I will continue to make my way.

Keeping a steady pace,
risking,
giving,
taking unheard chances.

The words of discouragement are yelled loudly at me!

The voices call out for me to fall,
they crave the feast of my destruction.

I will not break!!!!

Courage gentle soul...
the words echo through my heart.

My words may be silenced,
but I will move on.

[starcrossed]

Decided to be creative this morning. So I wrote this poem. It is different for me, so I don't know if you like it.

The Maze In My Head

I dreamed of you again last night.

The same dream
that I have had for weeks.

Is it an illusion,
or something more?

I struggle against the vivid images,
like unfounded memories
of a past life that I can't be sure of any more.

I fight the emotions,
and try to focus on what I must perceive as reality.

This life is new,
you are only a dream.

This life is different,
reality is not this dream.

Still struggle to find my place,
among the mob.

I have talents that I have never been taught,
and that no one can explain.

I sleep,
and the dreams keep coming.

I try to focus past them....
but fail no matter how much I try.

Is my mind going insane?

Vivid images keep haunting me,
I push them out.

It is like a maze in my head,
and I can't find my way.

[oceancat46]

I really like both new poems star -- here's one that I've written about dreams - I've been planning to post it for a couple of days, but just haven't got around to it --

Daydreamer

I spend time dreaming about you
And wondering what I should do.
I need you to care about me
So all my dreams will cease to be.

But dreams are all I have CHORUS
‘Cause you won’t give me more -
Dreams are all I have
To give me something to live for.

Sometimes I see you watching me,
Yet I wonder how much you see -
Do my feelings show in my face?
Can you tell that it’s dreams I chase?

CHORUS


I see in your eyes that you know
How much it hurts to let you go.
I need someone to be my friend,
On you or dreams shall I depend?

CHORUS

I cannot dream my life away,
So promise me that you will stay -
Please, don’t leave me to be with her
Or I’ll have nothing to live for.

CHORUS

I need something more than dreams.
Some more reality it seems
Would be the perfect thing for me
To make my life how it should be.

CHORUS

My only choice now is to go
Before there’s too much that you know.
I’ll have to find somebody new
And somehow, maybe, forget you.

‘Cause dreams aren’t all I have
Though you won’t give me more.
Dreams aren’t all I have
To give me something to live for.

[starcrossed]

I love the work OC!! I think it is great that you have such a creative mind. Keep up the great work. -Star

[bostongirl]

Star and OC - love both your new poems. You both are so good at this. As I said, I am not big into putting this stuff out there, but in a funky mood. So this is in honor of my husband.

The Warrior

He dresses in silence preparing the day
Slowly facing the man in the mirror
Searching for courage there is no delay
Not his choice this battle of horror

The mighty warrior so fearless and strong
Now a shadow, but relentless and in pursuit
Hidden enemy here does not belong
Attacks keep coming and now take root

Chorus
I will stand with you to fight this battle
You will never, ever be alone
My strength is yours for the taking
Hand in hand we will see tomorrow

Evil lurks in dark places and strike without warning
You think he’s beaten and long since perished
Past battle scars run long and deep
He’ll fight to the end to be with his cherished

Remember stellar days of our past
When happy was the charge of the day
A kiss, a touch felt forever to last
I pray we will see those moments again

Chorus
I will stand with you to fight this battle
You will never ever be alone
My strength is yours for the taking
Hand in hand we will see tomorrow